Finally! It’s been a long time since my last blog post. So today, I decided to make a blog segment – Life Lately. Since this is a personal blog anyway, I would love to share updates about what’s going on with my life. Lol. So let’s go ahead and drink virtual coffee together and start sharing!
I think I’ve mentioned before that I recently left my job and became unemployed – until now. I’ve been looking for jobs online but sadly… *crickets* … It really frustrates me because I’ve been eyeing a lot of things that I would love to buy but I can’t because I’m broke. There’s something that I would like to invest in but I can’t because I am penniless. Lol.
I became depressed and it came to a point in which it affected my health. I also stopped speaking with a lot of people, I felt very lazy, useless and was thinking what I really want to do with my life since until now, I’m still confused. I have the ability to do things but I feel like I never have something that I am actually really GOOD at. Also, I was rapidly gaining weight which made me feel ugly. I also felt a lot of chest pains and I had difficulty in breathing. It made me feel worse about myself. It is self pity, yes. They always say “it’s only in my head” but please don’t try to comfort depressed people with these words because it just doesn’t help. The mind is very powerful, and the more of those negative things lurk on our heads; the more it becomes REAL. What’s worse is I am an introvert. I am not comfortable with speaking with other people. I don’t know how to start or keep a conversation going. I also do not have a lot of friends and I’m not comfortable sharing some of the things that I feel to them, fearing that I am only over-reacting (it happened before).
“Every man has his secret sorrows which the world knows not; and often times we call a man cold when he is only sad.”
― Henry Wadsworth Longfellow
So, I made changes with my lifestyle recently. I usually am awake at night and asleep in the morning because my body clock is used to this kind of schedule back when I was still in the BPO industry. I changed it and I am now back to a normal-sleeping schedule. I also started to do morning walks every 5 in the morning. I became more active and my body doesn’t feel heavy, tired or lazy because of this. Before, I only eat heavy dinner (which is breakfast to me since like I said, I am always awake at night) and a heavy lunch at midnight. Now, I started to eat like a normal person and I only eat crackers and milk or sometimes apple for dinner. This routine made a huuuuuuuuuuge difference on my daily life. I do not feel the usual chest pains, my breathing has improved, my constipation is improving as well and I am not that sad anymore. Been doing this routine for a couple of days now and I hope I can maintain it.
Anyway, it’s already almost Whimsy’s due date. I am really excited because I would love to have cute little cuddly kittens again! Whimsy and Percy are still babies to me but they’re all grown up now and Percy is not really the cuddly type. He even look for ways to avoid me because he knows if he’s close to me, I’ll never let him go without cuddling him. Lol. However, I’m also worried because I’ve seen a lot of cats on Facebook who became stressed due to the Summer heat, which led them to have a miscarriage. 🙁 I previously made a post about how to take care of our pets during summer. Hope it works and everything goes well with Whimsy’s pregnancy.
Also, I am planning of starting to vlog about makeup or anything but I’m still researching on how to do it and I still need some lighting and whatsoever. Also, I still lack confidence. *Introvert thingie again* It’s really difficult for me and I really admire those who can speak their mind to anyone and has a confident aura hanging around them. This is actually a struggle for me and my friend Alvin whenever we eat outside. We struggle with ordering our food, requesting water, asking for our bill, etc. HAHAHAHA. I know it’s silly but the struggle is real. It was exhausting for us that’s why we want my boyfriend around with us all the time since he does the talking for us. 😉
Oh, by the way, it’s my birthday month! I’m not excited though. Haha. I don’t know why. Since I was a kid, we were not allowed to celebrate so I’m not used to it. The only time that I celebrated was on my 18th birthday. Even so, I still can’t avoid expecting to receive gifts from the people I know which disappoints me most of the time. Sadlife.
Well, that’s it for this post! There’s nothing much to share anymore and I never thought I can write a blog post this long. Maybe I really am better at expressing my thoughts in writing. How about you? Are you struggling with something else as well these days?
P.S. I apologize if the quality of my photos on this blog is not that good. I’m only using my mobile phone and I am still yet to purchase a decent camera. Soon, I hope. ?